Observation

In a crowded room
So many people
So many faceless people
So many pointless lives
Feels like blunt objects filled the room
In one room
There were so many thoughtless minds
I see so many of too much
And if they just disappeared the world might be a better place
And I wouldn't have to face
Such irrelevance
and sorry souls.
Everyday.


But is it just me, who am i to say all this?
This is merely but my observation of these people
who only talk about other people and the rest is obvious...

Me

I decided to live for me
to dedicate my life for me
to love no one but me
to be no one but me
to look after no one but me
it may seem selfish but this is for me
and right now I need me
cause no one was there for me
and i really need no one but me

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I tell myself I don't need anyone
I tell myself that I'm better off alone
I've learned
and hell knows i've burned
I was raised in a place where love was never acquired
and apparently its important to be required
I went into this world not knowing what is this thing people claim to be the best
and I had to try it which transformed me into a beast
I tried to love but i just cant
they all want my love
but trying was never enough
I just want to be left
but somehow people just keep coming
wanting something i cant give
something i dont think i have

Why?

I'm really tired, really deeply tired.
I feel like i cant breathe anymore
I feel like everyone hates me
everyone wants to see me fall
everyone wants to see me lose it all
feels like a conspiracy is about to begin
downfall of the hero
This is the end of the story
Im done ...

and im glad that im done.

Rumors

Rumors have been spread
A lot of things have been said
The innocent takes it all
The innocent will be the one to fall
The people will not believe
The people will not see
The people will only hear
The people will continue to talk
to spread to hurt to hate on the innocent
The innocent got burned
and learned a little in the process
The innocent will wait and pray for the truth to prevail

Black

The emptiness is consuming 

The nothingness takes over 

The feelings go numb

Nothing matters anymore

Everything is lost, or shattered 

It all goes black 

Numb

The package only gets heavier
The hurt only gets less painful
The mind only starts to think more deeper
The heart only beats to survive
The body feels nothing
and the surroundings are worthless.